Could any one person ever understand where true artist go in there mind

I can go to places where no one would ever dare travel in there mind and yet when it happens to me I choose to be there to experience the depths of whatever the feeling or experience might truly be.

It is hard to explain what happens to me when I am there and hopefully I can over time.

I feel as if I travel to not another dimension but another reality.  I dare to let myself feel what I need to feel in hopes that I can explain it to others who might be daring enough to listen.  I do this because I must.  I do this because I want to be and progress towards more than my previous existence.  Because I know I am a part of something that is greater then any one thing.  Because I know from previous experiences that.................................

On this matter I believe it is now your choice to start your path.

I sit here with trying to figure out what words to say but I know that is not necessary now.

Loving being an artist

I love being an artist. 

Most people who do not create full time or who might have full time jobs working in fields other then artistic endeavors probably would think that this statement of course would be easy to state since artist do what they want to do.

I say this because it is true but what is not understood by non artist is that you are not always creating or doing "what you want to do."  Many times just as it is in "regular jobs" you do what you have to do to get the job done.

My 30 Paintings/30 Days series may have taken only 30 days to create,  there was a lot of framing involved after the fact that I only now just completed.  Do I want to be framing as much as I did for this series,  no.  Did I need to in order to compliment the piece and show it off in the best way possible for them to sell,  yes.

There is always the promoting end of your work as well.  This can take far more time then you or anyone could have imagined.  I never realized how much is involved until needing to do it.  In a standard day job is this necessary,  depending on the job but thinking about the last day job I had it was not needed.  I have never had to work as much at any job as I doing being an artist.  It is the hardest thing I have ever done because it is all up to me.  But I have only recently come to realize that that can be a relief.  Things are in my control and I know that not only am I the creator of my work,  I am the creator of my life.  

I choose the creativeness of being an artist.  What would you choose???

With well over 50 submissions sent.................

Well over 50 submissions have been sent out and the most common response so far has been "We love your work but it is not the right fit with our gallery at this time."  Everyone that has returned a SASE has been quite kind and one even encouraged me to keep sending out submissions because he thought my presentation was excellent.

With this said,  it does not bother me.  I know I will find the right fits and only about 20% have been returned.  The real scary thing is that what if I got more galleries wanting my work then I can handle.  Is that not a silly thing to think about.  I have been neglecting my work since I have been focused on submissions and scouting locations for my "Crucifixion" exhibit.  It always makes me a little on edge if I don't produce new stuff.  I have been re-finishing pieces that were neglected while at various locations.  From that experience I won't be hanging in locations that all it seems about is covering there walls.  I am to the point that it needs to be in front of collectors since that is how I view my work,  collectable.

I feel different when I create.  More real.